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Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • oh how it goes

    My uncle died thursday.

    And I've been down ever since...(shocker)

    Not only is he gone...but it makes me realize how short life itself is.

    He was in his 80's. So he lived a long life. But for all I know, I could die when I'm 19.

    It just sucks. Because at this point in my life, I don't want to die.

    And I feel almost as if I cant. If that makes sense. I know I will, one day. But its just like one of those things that will "never happen to me" lol XD idk. its hard to explain.

    And it makes me think about my mom. And my current parents. And how I miss her. And how I wonder where she is. And how I love my current parents. And I would probably have a sichotic break down if either one, or both of them died. They are the solid foundation upon which I have built my life. They can't go. :(

    And so I've been swimming in these thoughts for the past few days...

Sunday, 25 October 2009

  • Jeremy Camp

    Last night I helped out at a concert with Jeremy Camp, Natalie Grant and Bebo Norman  :) I was really nervous at first because I was at the merch table for Jeremy Camp and there were all these things that we had to remember and etc etc etc But it started and it was hectic but it was good too. And then it slowed down when the concert began...and then it got busy again and slow again and I got to listen to about the second half of Jeremy's set :D which was very cool. And I cried XDDD but it was dark and i was in the back so it was all good hahah But anyway, it was just pretty amazing seeing him live and all. So much more powerful :DDDDDD but anyway i gotta go set the table so maybe ill write more later.

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

  • Health

    So yeah, I've been focused on the whole health thing at least mentally for a while. As far as acting on that...I fail.

    As far as exercise...I'm not too good at that. As far as doing things outside, I'm such a wimp that I dont like going outside once temperatures start to drop haha and in the summer I'm always thinking its too hot to go out and exercise. XD

    As far as eating healthy...I dont like most healthy things, such as vegetables and some meats and other various things...So its hard to get things I like and that are healthy.

    I don't really know what to do or how I could improve anything. Any ideas? Since I seem to fail at even coming up with those. lol 

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

  • College Essays

    So...I am starting my college applications. Thankfully 4 of my 5 colleges accept the Common App.

    So here are the essays/questions I have to answer.

     (250 words minumum)

    Choose ONE and explain how that philosophy relates to your talents, goals and the reasons you chose to apply to Dickinson.
    *Dickinson students shall become globally engaged citizen leaders.

    How did you first hear about Franklin and Marshall and why did you choose to apply?

    What would be your greatest contribution to the Franklin and Marshall community?

    All first-year students at the University of Maryland read one book together as part of our First Year Book program. This year's book, What Is the What by Dave Eggers, is the fictional account of a Sudanese refugee's search for home and self. Select your own book for the First Year Book program and tell us why you would want to share it with your classmates in the incoming class. Why does this book have personal meaning to you?

    The University of Maryland prides itself on being an inclusive community that celebrates differences, brings together people from the widest array of backgrounds and perspectives, and recognizes that excellence cannot be achieved without diversity. What do you look forward to gaining from the diversity of the University of Maryland community?

Sunday, 13 September 2009

  • 3 Poems

    These are 3 poems that we read in AP English last week. I really liked them so I thought I would share.

    Dulce et Decorum Est

    Bent double, like old beggars under sacks,

    Knock-need, coughing like hags, we cursed through sludge,

    Till on the haunting flares we turned our backs.

    And towards our distant rest began to trudge.

    Men marched asleep. Many had lost their boots,

    But limped on, blood-shod. All went lame, all blind;

    Drunk with fatigue; deaf even to the hoots

    Of gas-shells dropping softly behind.

     

    Gas! GAS! Quick, boys! - An ecstasy of fumbling,

    Fitting the clumsy helmets just in time,

    But someone still was yelling out and stumbling

    And flound'ring like a man in fire or lime.

    Dim through the misty panes and thick green light,

    As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.

    In all my dreams before my helpless sight

    He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.

     

    If in some smothering dreams, you too could pace

    Behind the wagon that we flung him in,

    And watch the white eyes writhing in his face,

    His hanging face, like a devil's sick of sin,

    If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood

    Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs

    Bitter as the cud

    Of vile, incurable sores on innocent tongues,-

    My friend, you would not tell with such high zest

    The old lie: Dulce et decorum est

    Pro patria mori

    - Wilfred Owen

     

    The Whipping

    The old woman across the way

          is whipping the boy again

    and shouting to the neighborhood

         her goodness and his wrongs.

     

    Wildly he crashes through elephant-ears,

          pleads in dusty zinnias,

    while she in spite of crippling fat

          pursues and corners him.

     

    She strikes and strikes the shrilly circling

           boy till the stick breaks

    in her hand. His tears are rainy weather

           to woundlike memories:

     

    My head gripped in bony vise

           of knees, the writhing struggle

    to wrench free, the blows, the fear

           worse than blows that hateful

     

    Words could bring, the face that I

           no longer knew or loved...

    Well, it is over now, it is over,

          And the boy sobs in his room,

     

    And the woman leans muttering against

          a tree, exhausted, purged -

    avenged in part for lifelong hidings

         she has had to bear.

    - Robert Hayden

     

    Ballad of Birmingham

    "Mother dear, may I go downtown

    Instead of out to play,

    And march the streets of Birmingham

    In a Freedom March today?"

     

    "No, baby, no, you may not go,

    For the dogs are fierce and wild,

    And clubs and hoses, guns and jails

    Aren't good for a little child."

     

    "But, mother, I won't be alone.

    Other children will go with me,

    And march the streets of Birmingham

    To make our country free."

     

    "No, baby, no, you may not go,

    For I fear those guns will fire.

    But you may go to church instead

    And sing in the children's choir."

     

    She has combed and brushed her night-dark hai,

    And bathed rose petal sweet,

    And drawn white gloves on her small brown hands,

    And white shoes on her feet.

     

    The mother smiled to know her child

    Was in the sacred place,

    But that smile was the last smile

    To come upon her face.

     

    For when she heard the explosion,

    Her eyes grew wet and wild.

    She raced through the streets of Birmingham

    Calling for her child.

     

    She clawed through bits of glass and brick,

    Then lifted out a shoe.

    "O, here's the shoe my baby wore,

    But, baby, where are you?"

    - Dudley Randall

    (the last is my favorite of the three)

     

     

           

     

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